let's loosen up..

hey guys.. what's up?

well its me, or my doppel?

there is such a thing as

doppelganger?! :P

anyway enough fooling around,

let's get started :D

just a short blog after a while

to all of you who are here

all of you who are having stress

all of you guys with the tense thing

and the i got lots to do thing

just sit back, breathe for a while

and just listen to this for a sec

feel the notes running through

your veins and relax

in refresh your minds and bodies

for without this you cant work in the

best condition, as they say

there is also a time for rest :D

the shadow of moonlight

well, i guess i am not proud of what seems to be yesterday...

at this time, i realized something

i realized that maybe tomorrow does not

really exist, that may be today

and what we call tomorrow and yesterday

are just illusions that we use to separate the

abundance of the time period which repeats every

two dozen of a kind


maybe today because today

not tomorrow and not yesterday

but the never ending today

i realized that well,

these words would seem that

even after everyday

even after every second i realize

that not everything must be made to fit

that maybe sometimes we realize that

it just hurts because we let it

it just happens because we let it

that maybe i really am just a robot

that maybe we all really are just something that

in life, are an existence of something more

rather than that creator of something less

that maybe these words

these porcupine words

those that utter the most common

and sometimes not common

would mean the best of

whatever the world made to last

and that everything

and that existence

was meant to fulfill a reason

but then that value we put on things

those borders and levels we humans create

are those very same things that fulfill our destiny

and that destiny was not meant to be

as they say predetermined

but rather we make it

rather we take it

and rather we break it

those bonds, those hopes,

even the very life itself that

every ounce of air we breathe

to every breath we take

will take us to infinity

and that the shadow

and the moonlight

the howling wolves remind us of fear

that fear of our own trueselves

is what make us to beleive that we are

imperfect as human beings








but then, why exist?

why try when we just cause a flux

to whatever is everything else?

then i heard this

"if you want something, take it

go for it yourself and do

everything for yourself,

then in the end you will find

whatever He wants you to find"

then it hit me, it hit me so hard

i felt i had a wound for it

that maybe, people lie not because

they want to conceal the truth

but rather they just cant accept it

maybe not yet

maybe never

but then, as the moon lights

the natural phenomenon let

the unravelling of an unnatural thing

this moonlight i spectacle upon

has something within, something

small that i think only i see for one sees

that there really is no steps for coping it

nothing of the instructional like sense

that would ease it in simple steps

just that it is so simple

so simple we cant understand it easily

that maybe

we just failed to accept

why life is full of fools

and that people who are great

often make the most mistakes

people understand

WHO YOU ARE

hey! what's up?

so you guys its me again! :)

how was your day today?

mine was kinda okay though

i kinda feel a wee bit down...

the thing is that it is always that things are

just happenin too fast for me, its kinda

hard to adapt sometimes and whats more is that

i guess its really not that bad but sometimes

i wish i can face whatever it is that is bothering me

one side says that i should just go in and take the risk

while the other side says taht i should wait and see if that

this is really the real thing or just an after effect if you will

most times it seems that one thing is for sure when i say

that it really bothers me, that is a fact i presume

though most times it is really this that gives me the key to the halfway

it is this quote from an application from facebook:


"one day you'll have to make a choice that your heart


rather than your head must decide upon."












well, see the dilemma? if not then please between the lines

well if you are finding it hard to read between, i must

as they say, enlighten you



i would often times ask this question to whether or not

i should do it, but then, i guess it really just that

i am thinking twice, or rather feeling unease

trying to choose between taking the risk of telling

"you make my day fly high to the sky" is kinda hard

especially to all of us men to tell the girl we like

more over that there is this "what if" factor

the thing is, this is just a difficult part of a man's life

this is half fiction half fact, so please use a reader's eyes

to tell you opinions if ever.

please feel free to comment and it will be very much appreciated

again another short one is done, God bless guys! :D

something for the arts

here's another one for you guys tonight

wow! i'm feelin bloggy tonight! haha!! maybe

one more post after this?! or not! XD!

anyway this video is a video for taekwondo

and a video for aikido

so all of you out there who are pretty much into these two,

and or some other martial art. this might just the thing for you

before i start with the "details" i would like to inform that this is just

a video from youtube about just one sparring session

this video does not and i mean i also do not

by any means am saying that one is better than the other,

all i am saying is that this video is supposed to show all of us

what happened in this match

so, if i may, let's begin! :P





in the video we can see that the taekwondo guy,

is the one who frequently attacks and that the

aikido guy is just standing in wait for an attack

well, i am no expert at any of the both parties so

i guess i can say that aikido is just

a martial of self defense using counters?



i may be right and i may be mistaken so if i am

mistaken please be kind enough to comment and tell me

well in a nice way of course

all of us here are civilized people after all..


in this video if you had watched it,

if not then reading this first would pretty much be a spoiler..

anyway based from this the aikido guy is,

no offense to you taekwondo-nians out there,

the aikido guy is just man handling him

and in some people's opinions about this,

the taekwondo guy was. again no offense

but the aikido guy just controlled the match till the end...





well i guess that is all i could say

please feel free to comment and i hope you all have a good day

and of couse, God bless to us all... :)

something for entertainment..

well its me again, this time its a wee bit early don't you think?

i usually post something at about some hours after nine

and i mean a long time after nine, maybe sometimes

its past 12 in the midnight right?

but this time this is different and really

i mean REALLY NOT A SERIOUS THING!! :P

this is just about a certain thing for fun especially to all

of you who are ragnarok players now or before

SO LET'S GET STARTED SHALL WE?? :








to start things off i would like you to please watch this video

this video from youtube was posted, well, of course it was

how else would i be able to get it right? :P

anyway this video was posted for some time

maybe this was an event or something

although edited, and i really dont know the song

it was really fun to watch

this video is entitled the Dance Dance Raagnarok

if you want you could search it too in youtube to see for yourself :D




the thing is i just want you all to relax and have a break a bit

something to get your minds off of the problems

even if its just a short while.

something better than using drugs

and maybe to some would want to try making one of these too

if you would do so and be so kind enough

please send me the link and i will be glad

to post a blog on it too

dont forget your name and if you have a staff

them too for the acknowledgments

this is not a contest and has no cash price i must specify

if ever some of you would want to play ragnarok

i mean start playing because of this then i am glad to

be of assistance and ragnarok should pay me

for advertising this to you all you know! (JOKE!!!XD!)






any way please dont forget to feel free to comment and anything

i would appreciate your thoughts so we can share ideas

once again God bless us all and good day :)

Today (A Campaign)

well today is a class day..

i woke up at nearly seven am then just rushed in for the action, well, class i guess


we had this Socio-Cultural class thing then which was well...

it was really enjoyful or what not :D

she always told of us experience and really helps although not much of a discussion...

then we found out there was no next class and pending is the math... well, this one is another short one

the blog is quite, well, just something out of the blue, hope you like it.

Morning Breeze

this is actually one note from my facebook account so sana maenjoy nyo po and feel free to comment :D

First time ko lang po gagawin ito so I'd like to hear your thoughts...

sa mga tatag ko, pasensya na po kung naabala pa kayo for this, pero sana po you can

give me your honest thoughts, at sa mga hindi ko matatag, pasensya na po...

I am this person, the usual person with the usual everything. usual worries and some insecurities.

but to be honest, the only thing i know that links me to everybody else mostly likely would be the

imperfections of my own being.

it is the new year and everybody, well at least as far as my eyes could see, ended the year

with the usual fireworks and the good old fashion feast. the way that it usually is from where i grew

up. over the years things change but then that very fact somehow made me feel different. it would

almost if not always seem that i always feel that i am different than everybody else, something that

what public would call odd. however this was what made it more difficult since i cannot even find or

figure out no matter how hard i try what it really was.

then one day on a fine noon it hit me, this unsual clue that led to this unknown parallel unvierse inside

my own head. then i remembered why i so desperately wanted to be a perfect being through these 

so called flashbacks. in that one instant i just temporarily remembered some people that i seemed to 

have forgotten. those words and those eyes, even the tiny little smiles that always seem to hit when

you see them back then.

every memory would always be the same yet so different in a sense to what it should have been. the 

faces of these people who became my history too seem to be reminding me, every single one of them

speaking to me in some what not sense. then i started talking to them only to realize i am just and was 

talking to my own self and then i felt so puzzled.

one of these flashbacks was from a little girl that looked so very familiar with her charming little smile and

the way she giggles everytime she saw me, then i remembered it was my expression of confusion that 

made other people think that i was so angry of the world and was too pessimistic when in realty it was 

so much, to me, the other way around of it all. there was this thing that kept me puzzled but it didn't affect

may wanting to long for her kind words and that bright smile.

one of the things i remember she told me, along with that longing smile and giggle for laughs, was saying the 

green stuff in my nose and how i looked too much of a kid to be puzzled. but then those very words meant so 

very different than before. now it seems that everytime i close to think or try to slumber she speaks to me,

that kind softness that makes me feel ecstacy, when she says, hello again, then i would just say hi.

by now you must be wondering who is this young girl i keep telling you about over and over again, why the 

emphasis? for that part i am so sorry because i too can;t seem to remember her name. everytime it always 

seem to be just a dream that remains sealed deep down.

then i dreamed of her with the sun in the sky, there was something different this time, because

when i saw her the clouds became her eyes and the stars became her hair and it was blinding.

this time the message was too short to speak of and entire time that seemed to be eternity

but she said to me one important thing.

then there were so many quotes that flashed on my memory and i can't even remember why it all

 came back to my senses. i was drowning into everything by taking too seriously. i forgot life has

other things other than what i can only reach for. there was something that bothered me all along.

i was trying to defy the nature given to me. perfectionist is not a term, vain is not the word,

arrogance is close but it's something else. it reminded me of the things that always seemed to

give me more power to do something but now it was really gone.

the sunset should have passed but it just came this time as if time was reversing itself. i gained 

so much but at what cost did it come from? there were too much of what's going on. never have

i really realized that my being became different than how i was originally and before everything

else. people seem to take their time and don't like me because the reality is that it is easy for me

to adopt to something that seems to be jiburish to them. but then my hardness is everybody's

easy points. i am instantly different. and i seem to have been very boastful to you but in my

defense, the truth is that i did not intend to be so. this work is just a mind's myth and the pens

work. reality is very different than the optimistic is what it really was simply put.

however it dont mean that one should be pessimistic instead. it just means that we can't too

much of everything because we have limits. again and again it seemed i didnt get it because

without knowing it my smile seemed to have faded more and more over the days.

but then it came to me, at one sunday on the vacation time, though this print is half truth

and half myth, that morning was the maker, because it gave the answers i wanted for

and i smiled once more after a long time, just needed that 7am, the most satisfying,

nature's own morning breeze..

i hope you enjoyed reading this, and i am looking forward to your honest comments.

My Valentines Day

so this is my valentines day... grbe ang hirap ng pinagdaanan ko haha!!

well to start di nmn tlg sya as in parusa! just something na kakaiba for today

nangyari kasi na nagkaroon ako ng date with someone na medyo nakilala ko na pero ndi kami close.

tapos nagdate kami and by that i mean sine! and sobrang konting kwentuhan!

grbe di ko maintindihan kung bkt ganun ang nangyari kasi di ako makaimik ang torpe ko!

ni wla nga akong naibigay na flowers so i wanted something na pra makabawi man lng kasi it was just out of the blue and i just failed! haahahahah!! damn ang sama ng nangyari sakin sobra!

at least may good rin ito although not so much kasi nakuhanan ko nmn sya ng picture for today... i wish na sana nakakuha man lng ako ng picture na magkasama kami! :D kahit wacky bsta pang souvenir man lng! :D